[....There's something very uncomfortable about this conversation, and he can't quite pinpoint what it is. It puts him on pins and needles--it makes him want to escape it, somehow.]
Enough. I didn't agree to this and I have no intentions of agreeing to it. I'm not your friend, nor am I the friend of anyone you know.
[Namazuo speak for "sure, you just keep thinking that".
He can let Leon be a tsun all he wants, but there's one point he won't back down on.]
But I will not say it was needless. I don't regret my decision.
[Was it frightening? Has he been sick with shame and fear over making the others deal with loss like that? Does he still, at the end of the day, feel like he failed? ...Yes. And if it meant protecting Leon, he would do it all again.]
The words, though... they're achingly familiar. Hadn't he said the same? Wouldn't he say the same if confronted again? I don't regret my decision. I would do it all again.
It's ridiculous. He's angry about it, and now he understands why Stahn gets so frustrated when he says it, but on the other hand... he understands why Namazuo would say so. It's impossible to try to accept that a choice could've been wrong. It's impossible to want to accept that a choice made to protect someone else was wrong.]
[If Namazuo knew him a little better, he might've known what else to say. Something like, "You are worth saving." But he doesn't know Leon very well at all, and his vague suspicions about this argument aren't enough to put such bold declarations on. No matter how much he believes it, there's no way to know what Leon actually needs to hear.
But he doesn't really want to talk about himself, either. So he shifts the subject back to safer territory.]
[It's a good change of subject; Leon doesn't mind talking about Chal to someone who...treats Chal right. He's slowly getting used to other people being able to hear him, but when it's another sword, he doesn't really feel the need to be jealous. It isn't as though Namazuo could take Chal away from him like the other humans who can hear Chal here (irrational, but nonetheless a fear).]
He's fine.
[There's a pause, before Leon begrudgingly types out:]
He says that he is happy to know that you are all right.
[IT'S NOT FROM LEON IT'S FROM CHAL and it was still a Struggle to type out those words.]
[Good lord, Leon, if you tsun any harder you might actually explode.
But it's true that Leon doesn't have anything to worry about, especially not with him. Namazuo knows just how strong the bond between a sword and his master can be, and he has no reason to want to get between that. He's old, and a brother on top of that--if anything, he'd like them to be closer.
That won't stop them from adopting Chal into swordhaus, of course. It just means that Leon's getting adopted too.]
Good. I'm happy to hear that too.
[He'd worried, of course. He'd only been in the Code for a brief time, but he'd spent most of it wondering if his actions had been any help at all.]
...Please tell him he did well. I think it would mean a lot to him to hear that from you.
[Overstepping his boundaries, maybe, but he just died, so Leon can deal.]
But he's quiet for a moment at that, text, frowning as he looks at it. Chal, naturally, has to ask what it says--and Leon's quiet for a long moment in response to that as well, not responding.
His response, finally, is probably to be expected.]
I did not ask for your opinion, so keep it to yourself.
[He definitely overstepped his boundaries there, but despite the sharpness of the text, Leon's...going to deal with it. At least, it's something that will linger on his mind, even if he doesn't say as much to Chal just yet.]
If you are able to have an opinion like that, clearly you are fine.
[It was definitely pushing his limits, and so is a nice thing like that!!! He's not prepared for nice things like that, so clearly he's... going to go ahead and just backflip his way right out of this conversation.]
Do not thank me for something like this. This conversation is over.
[YOU KNOW... JUST TO BE SURE. In case you were wondering. It's over.]
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Don't be ridiculous. I am nothing like that. Nor do I have any interest in it.
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I don't think that's up to you to decide, Leon-san.
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Enough. I didn't agree to this and I have no intentions of agreeing to it. I'm not your friend, nor am I the friend of anyone you know.
Leave it at that.
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[Namazuo speak for "sure, you just keep thinking that".
He can let Leon be a tsun all he wants, but there's one point he won't back down on.]
But I will not say it was needless. I don't regret my decision.
[Was it frightening? Has he been sick with shame and fear over making the others deal with loss like that? Does he still, at the end of the day, feel like he failed? ...Yes. And if it meant protecting Leon, he would do it all again.]
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The words, though... they're achingly familiar. Hadn't he said the same? Wouldn't he say the same if confronted again? I don't regret my decision. I would do it all again.
It's ridiculous. He's angry about it, and now he understands why Stahn gets so frustrated when he says it, but on the other hand... he understands why Namazuo would say so. It's impossible to try to accept that a choice could've been wrong. It's impossible to want to accept that a choice made to protect someone else was wrong.]
You are an idiot.
[... He can't argue against that, really.
He doesn't know how.]
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I'll accept that.
[If Namazuo knew him a little better, he might've known what else to say. Something like, "You are worth saving." But he doesn't know Leon very well at all, and his vague suspicions about this argument aren't enough to put such bold declarations on. No matter how much he believes it, there's no way to know what Leon actually needs to hear.
But he doesn't really want to talk about himself, either. So he shifts the subject back to safer territory.]
How is Chal-kun?
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He's fine.
[There's a pause, before Leon begrudgingly types out:]
He says that he is happy to know that you are all right.
[IT'S NOT FROM LEON IT'S FROM CHAL and it was still a Struggle to type out those words.]
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But it's true that Leon doesn't have anything to worry about, especially not with him. Namazuo knows just how strong the bond between a sword and his master can be, and he has no reason to want to get between that. He's old, and a brother on top of that--if anything, he'd like them to be closer.
That won't stop them from adopting Chal into swordhaus, of course. It just means that Leon's getting adopted too.]
Good. I'm happy to hear that too.
[He'd worried, of course. He'd only been in the Code for a brief time, but he'd spent most of it wondering if his actions had been any help at all.]
...Please tell him he did well. I think it would mean a lot to him to hear that from you.
[Overstepping his boundaries, maybe, but he just died, so Leon can deal.]
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But he's quiet for a moment at that, text, frowning as he looks at it. Chal, naturally, has to ask what it says--and Leon's quiet for a long moment in response to that as well, not responding.
His response, finally, is probably to be expected.]
I did not ask for your opinion, so keep it to yourself.
[He definitely overstepped his boundaries there, but despite the sharpness of the text, Leon's...going to deal with it. At least, it's something that will linger on his mind, even if he doesn't say as much to Chal just yet.]
If you are able to have an opinion like that, clearly you are fine.
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And yes, that's pretty much exactly what he expected. That's why his reply comes relatively quickly.]
It's not an opinion. It's a request.
[Okay, technically it was both, but this conversation is obviously pushing Leon to his limits. So Namazuo will free him, for now.]
Thank you for sending me a message. It was good to hear from you directly.
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Do not thank me for something like this. This conversation is over.
[YOU KNOW... JUST TO BE SURE. In case you were wondering. It's over.]